Where does the time go?

It's one death after another, lately. The deaths are not of people to whom I was ever close, more like people one degree removed from me, thus leaving me feeling badly for my friends who are dealing with the shock of unexpected and, in some cases, tragic deaths.

A thought keeps going through the back of mind.... "Is this a training period, of sorts, for me?" My mother, stepfather, aunt, father are all getting up there in years. I can't imagine my life without them in it....and yet, people everywhere deal with these losses every day and my closest friends are dealing with this pain.

It started with a plane crash, then a recently diagnosed Alzheimer's patient, then a 41 year old with diabetes, then a friend's uncle who had not had heart problems in 25 years -- massive heart attack at home and then a woman whose reputation at work simply glowed.....heart attack while packing to move she and her family to a new home.....because our company was closing her office.

I'm sending love and warmth into the Universe on behalf of these people and those who loved them.

XOXO

Dreams

I keep having dreams.....sexual dreams.....VERY sexual dreams about people in my life who are not necessarily my partner. Last night, I had two dreams about my closest friend at work.

In the first dream, she was in a long white dress with gold square boxes sewn in and she came over to where I was standing and asked me to dance.

I hesitated before accepting her invitation and then realized I was shaking. I went to her, held her, reached down and lifted up her chin so I could kiss her. And yes, we danced.

Hours later I had another dream in which we were literally "in the throes".....I'll spare everyone the details but I have been unable to shake the feeling of 'wanting more' all day.

San Antonio Spurs

I lived in Texas from around 1978, off and on, through about 1993. The Spurs were NEVER a winning BBall team and it was embarrassing to root for them.

4 Titles in 9 years????



HOLLA!!!!!!!!

The Pioneer Woman

Go here now......http://www.thepioneerwoman.com/

I was using Google to find out more information on a lens for my Nikon D70 and ended up on her site. I can not believe that I have not seen her weblog before. She's amazing.


Go! Go now!!!





Why are you still here??

Squeak, squeak, squeak, squeak...

Who, on this Earth, thought it was a good idea to design toddler shoes that squeak when they walk? And what sadist thought it would be a good idea to put those shoes on their toddler and then take that toddler to Hollywood Video and let the child run amok in the aisles?

My frazzled just-after-work nerves did so not need that.

Imaginary Friends

Shortly after Richard Jeni allegedly killed himself, the gals on The View showed some clips of his performances on their show. During one of the clips, he said something that really, really resonated with me. He said, about religious wars, "You're basically killing each other to see who has the better imaginary friend."

Genius. Sheer Genius.

RIP

I Knew It

Man, keeping up a blog is hard and challenging work. I have thoughts throughout the day that I think, "oh, I'll write about that" but given that I work in an office environment with folks who have no sense of privacy when they walk up to my computer, I keep those thoughts to myself and think about writing here later. Then, I get home and I watch TV while sitting on my ass and now, here it is, three months later with nary a post.

First of all, how MUCH do I love Ellen Degeneres? She's amazing. Her show is never mean spirited, it's always fun and I am so thrilled that she is doing a daily show. I can not believe that I am living in a time wherein an Out and Proud Lesbian is on her own daytime talk show and that she hosted the Academy Awards. I never thought I'd see these days.

Second of all, The CLASS OF 80 ROCKS! Rosie O'Donnell is so, so enjoyable that I am watching The View religiously. We're the same age and have so, so much in common and she really speaks The Truth in a way that pleases me mightily.

I stepped on my scales in January and was absolutely appalled to see the numbers on the digital readout --- in the order in which they were displayed. I was only 27 pounds from 200 and I'm only 5'5". I moped and continued my wicked ways until Lent when I decided to give up adult beverages for a six week period of time to see if that could keep my hands out of the pantry. I drink, I munch, I gain weight. It's simple, really.

I started walking on our ProForm treadmill on March 19th and have walked 30-60 minutes almost every day since and I am starting to see slight progress. I am down nine pounds from my all time high. It's slow progress but I can not continue my life along the path it was going so I'm happy I've been able to toe the line.

All for now,
Amelia